can't sleep. tired. i miss _. i don't want to anymore. just wanna sleep. it's better in my dreams. but i hate waking up cause sometimes i'd dream that we're still together.know what its like waking up with tears in your eyes?or that sinking feeling knowing that i trusted the wrong guy.

not being bitter. i could've done much better. take it the way you like, i know what i mean.

take back my heart. but then i'd give it back to him in a heartbeat.

or not.

i think i've really changed from the girl a year ago. am so proud of myself though it sucks to be picking up shit.

taken from Joey's blog "you can love who you trust, but can you trust who you love?"

and i realized that all along the answer was no.


x

when it doesn't make sense/when it starts to.

"you're the guy i'd be stupid to trust"

I'M SO GLAD BLOGGER IS WORKING FINE AGAIN! HEHEHEHE LUV YOU BLOGGER! <3

more pictures than usual! but not that many though; just a few from the past few days. -.-

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIM HONG GUO! though it's already past twelve = 1st of September/October (can't remember which comes first -..- i sound like such a stupid stupid)

HAHA. hope you enjoyed your birthday (:

oh ya i've lots to grumble about later regarding today.@$&*)@! doubt anyone will really read though.

pictures up first! and i have a lot of mirror shots. -..- no idea what's my problem.

Chinatown with Bec. we went to buy cloth and stuff. kept her waiting for around an hour or so><






Saturday night with Cyn and some others whom i think will be better not to mention:























Today, with Karen, Baochuan and Kendra (K's friend). Met up with K and Bc at Hougang Mall. was late, so i didn't get the chance to go back to school and see ex-classmates like Yiheen. heard from Carson that he was there and that he became more buff!

anyway, headed to Cathay for some sushi at 99 cents each. K headed off with Kendra after.







Bc looks super cute luh! i like her hair now (:

then it was off to meet Hongguo, Yilin, Matthias, Juncheng, Mingkang, Aldrin and Huishan. phone was running out of battery so i didn't take much photos. most of them are with Yilin so i shall just steal them when she uploads. hehe

oh ya we bought scratch cards! and it was damn bo liao, sitting at TCC using coins to scratch away the silver thingy, and Mingkang kept complaining that i didn't know how to play properly since i just scratched it away, without using their technique, which was to scratch away slowly with a lot of anticipation -..-







FD4 after, and thank God K was at Plaza Sing. as well, cause i couldn't get in..... knn! damn pissed off LOL i personally blame it on the ticketing people being fucking kiasu and for the rest for being so damn tall that they totally made me look like a dwarf.

seriously they are like damn tall. or maybe it's me but i think i'm gonna start wearing heels around already! lol

i nearly threw a tantrum cause the guy wouldn't let me in and he recognized me from before. damn annoying. said something really bullshitty like 'i gave you the wrong ic cause i was covering the face before. i took my sister's ic.' then he was like 'why sister both 1991?' in that fucking skeptical way.

then i totally bombed and said 'you mean i can't have step-sister?'

-..- then he totally didn't wanna let me in and went to get his manager. THANK GOD i tell you the manager was nice cause they were like looking at my face and K's photo and saying how i didn't look alike. and i said it was cause it's an old photo and i had makeup on. -..- then the manager just asked me her ic number and date of birth. luckily clever me already memorized it on the way up.

okay that's how i managed to get in-..-

LOL. met Cyn after when the rest went for the buffet. then wandered around alone for a bit after she had to rush off, then met up with them again and went to Hg's place for cutting of cake.

okay that's all i'm off. my fingers are super tired and achy from all the typing and msn-ing.

mahjong tomorrow at John's, then Rebel on thursday with Ben and his friends! (:

i like~ HAHA body still feels achy from two nights ago.


kay byebye lovelies! <3


xoxo
il.....

ps:the one they all want.

you make my life complete

zirca > to rebel.

not a bad night at all. some dude kinda turned me off though.

single life ain't bad at all, though it sucks when i see..... and it's like 'ignore ignore' chanting.

yes i'm blogging. :D

at __________'s place now. and.. HAHA. i spied something and i immediately shouted 'KNN!' and it was followed by
'i'm not happy"))))):

but seriously i hate feeling jealous or anything, or like strong emotions. much rather i can't feel anything, though i'm slowlyyyyyy slowlyyyyy not feeling anything already.

feels damn weird when i see him trying to chase other girls. damn weird. and kind of rolls eyes* inducing

okay im quite high still hahahahaha

okay shut up.

anyway saw this guy i spotted at cine the other day at rebel! he's quite hot actually. hehe

kay go already pictures up soonly!



xoxo
green eyed

ps: what's this i hear about you?

Bec's over here atm, and she's using my sewing machine.

made a bodycon skirt and just finished a crop top. hehe but i've no idea if i'll dare to wear the cropped top out. quite simple to make though.

kay off to make my vest. -.- bored bored bored bored bored.

feel like chewing on things but i'm supposed to be on a diet! ..... ):


xoxo


edited:

super last minute invite to club. Y.A.Y!plus confirm can get in and don't need ic. :D

gonna be a no life and be stuck at home today!

didn't go movie with Jc and co, neither did i go out with Cyn.....luckily i think Binghui is coming over to keep me company later, so at least i won't be too bored!

hehe though i'm supposed to be doing my skirt and cropped top and all, bought some cloth yesterday.

reason why i'm not stepping out = no money. -..-

though i don't think i'm going for the buffet thing already, but still no moneyyyyy! >:[

okay enough of whining. actually i don't really feel like going out either. hehe.

shall go heat up my pasta. but i'm supposed to be on a diet! HAHA. goal of 40kg..... need to gym and swim and all.

kay bbye!


xoxo

ps: i'm afraid i'll make the wrong choice.

grin and bear it

oh my. amazingly enough blogger works fine at Bec's. maybe it's really my computer that's been acting up >:[ feel like such a traitor for wanting to switch lappies, it's been through so much with meeeeee! HAHA.

but i really want a new one that has a in-built webcam and i sound like those super lag people.....

lol! i don't know what's my problem.

anyway, diet plan probably going to fail; waited till nine to go get my breakfast from the Kopitiam at R.plaza, and went to sleep straight after. met Bec at Chinatown. got cloth and studs and stuff, and we ate guo tie and ban mian and ice kosong. tskkkkkkk. and the guo ties are really super nice! much better than HK Cafe types.

told Bec it's a pity A and i weren't together else i'd have bought some for him another time and surprised him with it since he doesn't like spring onions and all, but idk why he likes to eat guo tie since they're filled with it.

okay shut up.

brrrr freezing and Bec is so comfortable beside me and i think it's like raining. maybe Gym tomorrow with her and Joel? DIET PLAN! plus i wanna go swimming, but i don't wanna swim in public and i don't wanna tan, so one good solution is to swim at night, but tried that with Eve and it was damn scary!

kept having those 'things are going to pull me downnnnnn!!' feeling. and didn't really dare to swim much. Especially with it being the Seventh Month now. ><

wha lao and they totally shouldn't play advertisements for the ghost shows lor. knn damn scary. esp at night wtf creepyyyyy.

anyway, didn't go to celebrate Junren's birthday just now, sorrrrry! though i don't think he'll see it. problem with being underage and all you see. so ma fannnnnn.

oh ya Cyn owes me a movie too! so hopefully can meet her and watch. :D

kay go le. bbyezz! HAHA.

photos soon.


xoxo
hi,goodbye

ps: how i wonder what you are.

for Bh.

to one of my dearests:

hiiiiii luv!

i hope you'll take in mind what i'm writing down here, because it's important! and you should really read it what i write, plus it's sweet and all so be honored that this post is for you alright!

anyway, thanks for always being there for me, regardless of how busy you are, and for always saying that i brighten up your day and that i make you happy!

but the thing is dear, that i'll get worried for you too cause you're one of my closest friends, and i know you're always up to your neck in shit that i can't help you clear. and well, you've got to take good care of yourself in order to take care of others! like what i just told you.

and i know you wanna take care of me and everyone else, but seriously, you've got to care about your own needs first, and just relaaaaaaaaaax. cause i can take care of myself, and i'm sure the rest can too!

thanks for being one of my bests, and i know you know who you are cause i told you to read my blog. anyway, i luv you dear! so always remember that i'm here for you no matter what, and you know i am!

luv,
J