so much.

i think i rely too much on my laptop and my phone. like so many other people nowadays. somehow it feels like i'm damn cut off from the rest of the world.

lol! and i thought john was playing the piano. then i was pleasantly surprised cause i was like 'eh so nice ah?!' but in the end it was just jay chou singing -.-

seems like really a lot of things have been happening. and everything is really about decisions, to go this way or the other.

how many times can one prove themselves, till it gets sick and tired, this whole cycle? things are different now, super different. in more ways than one in fact.

but, i know how sincere you are, how different you are now; even talking to my parents, coming all the way down not knowing what will happen. thank you, thank you.

it meant a lot to me, and it said a lot.

ahh i just need some time. a deal's a deal remember? <3


okay i miss cynthia ): powerhouse yesterday, and we met a lot of weird and lame guys with stupid pick up lines. omg super fucking cliche i swear, amusing though.



okay off. photos up soon (:


xoxo
love shouldn't leave.

ps: one more event to add on to what we've been through together. ily.

hate that i love you so.

i can't sleep. and it's nearing 7 in the morning.

gossip girl season 3 omg i love serena and blair and aiya everybody. shut up.

why can't i sleep.....? fuck this. FUCK. more than insomnia maybe. knn no shit again please. thanks.

lively

"left right left right"

i have a problem. i impulse shop a lot. as proven by today's trip to Daiso, i really can't quite control my spending and i end up with loads of question marks when i get home and really look at what i bought.

Yutong was kind enough to accompany me for an impromptu trip there, and he was the one pushing the trolley as i walked in front and kept tossing stuff into the cart. dinner at the food court after, and i can't help feeling scammed though it was only cai fan.

super tired!!!!! have to sleep early tonight, that's for sure. ended up sleeping at 6am. dratttttttttt.

okay shall go have some shut eye. photos up real soon. (:



xoxo

ps: too bad, cause you're one of the ones who'll never look at me.

wake up call

"decisions are so hard to make."

on the phone with Cyn now, and it's only 1:57am. drat it allllllll.

body aching, i think i'm aging at quite a fast rate, AND I'M HUNGRY AGAIN! fuck this. i can feel my face rounding out even further, my tummy bulging and my thighs expanding..... fuckkkkkkkk.

exercise more! i wanna go swimming soon, anyone?

school tomorrow, hafta sleep soon.

it's funny how things have come full circle. but why now, out of all times? it's hard, it really is hard. whyyyyyyy? and why this way manzx.

i think i repeat things too much. -..-

i sound boring manszxzx. i need to have fun weekends to keep me from feeling like going out during the weekdays.

need to do my brows, it's like a garden up there i swearrrrrrrr. and i hate my fringe now. like cui cui one. ):

Cyn isn't listening to me ): LOL

and i think girls gossip a lot about guys, and i luv looking at pretty girls. hehe.

kay bedtime! goodnight.


xoxo
what now, baby?

ps: i need time to sort everything out.

couldn't say what i really wanted to say. saved as drafts once again.

fuck i hate this, this part right here.

get the fuck out of my life. i mean it. do i?

heart constricting, and there's a sour feeling deep inside of me.

shut up and swallow it; don't fall. don't fall.

edited:

John: eh wait awhile can?
Me: why?
John: i want to go pom pom. can?
Me: okay lor i wait for you.
John: no i talk to you when i pom pom.
Me: how?!
John: 2009 modern technology loudspeaker!!!!!
Me: LOL

Me: (reading my love horoscope out loud) John: Then?
Me: (reading)
John: Then?
Me: (reading)
John: Then?
Me: finish liao lor.
John: wow.. i don't understand a single shit.

LOL and he act yi ge understand with all the then thens.....
that guy is an absolute idiot. swear. but i still luv him anyway! <3 Mr Asshole! (as friends luhhh ah duhhhhhh)

oh ya! CLICK ON THE NUFFNANG AD PLEASE!!!!! >>>>>>>>> thank youuuuuuu who ever clicks on it! :D

okayeeeee time to sleep. stupid john is mimicking people and their accents. HAHA and making weird sounds.

who's the one i'm supposed to be there for?

back home. omg i've no idea why my hands are trembling. -.- headache too, slight one. oh nooooooooo.

went to class today! and made some new friends! or rather, talked to new classmates. hahaaaaaa and class is actually fun! -..- and i kept talking a lot. like what iza said. and kept giving comments -..-

talked about drugs and tobacco and alcohol and all kinds of addictions. hmm pretty good though. the teacher is cute too! female of course!

and i think it has really become a habit to blog eh. like everytime i touch the computer. hahahaha.

so many things i wanna buy.....! have to restock on falsies, and i wanna buy Cyn's super powered eyelash glue..... andddddddddd a lot luh.

meeting Bec later. yay! to eat fries. okay i have a headache. WHY??!?!?! and i'm hungry again. wtfh.

okay go off already. need to rest asap. hehe :D


xoxo
and i love what you do,
don't you know that you're toxic?

ps: see you around. and i've got it all straightened out. like my thoughts! self-sufficiency is the best.