Long due

photos from my 20th back in 2011. i have tons of photos from that day and from other times but the lazy bug has bitten me yet again. 2012 has been great so far, save for the gambling. biggest loss of all the years yet but oh well it isn't a huge amount.

i still haven't decided on my new years resolution yet and it's already nearing the end of January. the top one that would be on my list though, would be to save money. i hope whoever reads this has had a great month and will have an awesome year ahead!


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first post of 2012

photo of a roller coaster that i took during the Christmas Eve part one spent at USS with my cousins.

thought that it would be a good photo to put, because of the saying 'life is like a roller-coaster' etc.

i'm doing this post a tad late since it's already 1:53am, on the 2nd day of the new year, but better late than never i guess?

in the past year alone, my life changed 360 degrees. there're too many things to list out, but my conclusion would be that although 2011 wasn't a really good year for me, i've learnt so much from these months and i've found out that i'm actually stronger than i thought i was.

i'm thankful for my family, for my parents unending patience with me. my friends, for staying with me throughout. bee, for still being here.

there are a lot of mistakes i've made, people i've lost and i regret every single one. i hope that every single one of my friends stay safe and really have the most awesome life i can imagine for them and be really really happy no matter what.

okay, moving on to happier things:

my new years resolution for 2011 turned out quite horribly.

11 for 2011

1> Keep a healthy diet/Lifestyle  (fatter than ever)

2> Be more decisive (i've become quite decisive actually, in most matters so that's okay.)

3> Have an actual amount of savings (not really)

4> Be the best i can be (can be much better)

5> Instill Discipline in myself (improved, but still meh-ish)

6> Be punctual (HA.HA.HA)

7> Finish my unfinished business with Cyn (um..... still unfinished)

8> Get my license (haven't even registered)

9> Graduate from MDIS (not gonna happen)

10> Be happy (trying to be)

11> Swear off guys (nope. didn't happen)

so, most of my resolutions weren't achieved! nonetheless, i shall make a new list for the new year. 12, for 2012! Maybe i should be more specific this time.

1. Lose 5 kg. 
2. Exercise at least once a week.
3. Be Punctual
4. Do not procrastinate.
5. Become prettier.
6. Get my drivers license. 
7. Go overseas at least twice. 
8. Stick to a rigid beauty routine. 
9. Make more time for my family and friends.
10. Improve my temper. 
11. Study!! 
12. Have at least 5k in my bank by December.

okay, i will think about that list. it's quite iffy i think. weird.
 
okay bye!


xoxo

pre-birthday

well, so it's the 9th of December. can't believe that in a few hours time, i'll be hitting the big 2-O. truth be told i'm as unenthusiastic about my birthday as a turkey would be about Thanksgiving. there's just this thing about growing old-er that i can't quite face.

could be the sense of vulnerability of having to be more independent, or it could be the premature sense of loss of the older beloved. could be a whole lot of things that i don't wanna go dig into; it could be just like Pandora's box without that little voice of Hope in it.

how could anyone find hope in growing old? used to be when i was younger i wished desperately that i could be older, and after i've reached and surpassed that actual age, i start wishing that i could just stay young forever.

my ideal world would be one where i'd never have to grow old and just stay at the magical age of 18. life was wonderful back then. without a care in the world i could just do whatever i wanted and not worry at all about all the consequences that have slowly caught up to me at the age of 20.

if i'd known back then, i'd have told myself to be more determined, be more disciplined, go to school and not waste time with relationships. but the me now seems to still think that i've come out a better person because of it, despite everything that has happened so far that hurt in ways i couldn't have imagined recovering from.

still, i'm not one for regrets. i still believe that regret is an extremely pointless emotion and that whatever doesn't kill me definitely would make me stronger. also more cynical and wary, but nonetheless, stronger.

i would like to make the most of my next year. it's obvious i'm running out of time and i haven't seemed to have achieved anything that could make me proud of if i die right now.

but hey, the optimist in me still survives and i think that everything happens for a reason. i hope my reason is really good though.



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Furries and Musings

now (most of the photos are of Duffy because Skippy was very wriggly and curious today, which made a lot of shots kind of blur. Normally the two of them would just calmly lie there and pose for photos when they know that i want to take a photo of them. i'm definitely not being biased for posting up more of Duffy.)

these photos are already up on my facebook, but i couldn't resist putting them up again here. got a new camera recently and i've been trying to learn how to use it properly, so more often then not, my babies become my test subjects.

on another note: i can't believe i'm hitting 20 in three days time. i'm filled with fear for the future and i don't wanna grow old. time flies way too fast these days. doesn't it?

i asked my parents if they read my blog, then decided that it's a bad idea for them to actually read it. browsed through my old archives and read post after post of me being heartbroken and weak.

how much of that has changed i wonder? i know i'm stronger now. the question is: what is going to take to break me? for the sake of my sanity, i hope i'll never find out.



xx

From my phone

Still in the search for the perfect blogging-on-the-go app, I've come across Blogpress.


















1: one random camwhore photo out of the hundreds in my phone.
2: the day Tuffy, Duffy & Skiply met.
3: Cynthia's birthday cake!
4: plates and plates of spaghetti for lunch.
5: buddy meal with Weasley
6: gellish nails done @ millys
7: day out with Becbec.
8: 2 hour fail surprise for Cyn with Bec.

Hope this app works!

Xoxo

-via Blogpress��

edited: okay, so i had to come back to edit the spaces between the photos in this entry, but over all i think it's worth the $2.99.

edited again: the gaps are still showing despite numerous times at fixing them. those gaps are pissing.me.off. 

11/11/11

so, today is the 11/11/11, and also the 18th birthday of my beloved twin sisters!

i'll bet a lot of people (including me) will make a wish at 11/11/11@ 11:11am, and i've even switched on a website for Singaporean time, so i can make a wish at 11/11/11 @11:11 am, 11 seconds.

so, here's a list of what i might wish for. (keyword: MIGHT. i've always believed that one should never tell anyone what you wished for or else it definitely won't come true.) Not in order.

1) MONEY/MONEY TREE

everybody wishes they'd get rich right? so why not a money tree? best if it will never die, and is able to sprout whichever currency/form of wealth that is worth the most value at any point of time. owning a money tree would just be super awesome, though i'll bet i'll just keep camping and literally watch "grass" grow if it really magically appears.

2) Perfect Body+Face

the first suitable person that popped into my mind was Heidi Klum,  though i'm sure that there are many versions of perfect bodies around! it was either her, or Xiao S, cause they're both so slim even after giving birth a few times! who wouldn't want that right?

3) Success

the photo is super cute! and yes, Success. in all aspects of life would be nice, no? be it career-wise or in your personal life, having assured success in whatever you do can really come in handy.

4)

Ravenclaws motto is, 'Wit Beyond Measure Is Man's Greatest Treasure', and i fully agree. wouldn't it be nice to posess high intellect and have a mind that far surpasses the common people? this isn't an admission of stupidity, but it would be nice to not get stumped over mathematics, or be able to understand complex theories or master languages easily yadda yadda.....

5)

this man is so sexy, he deserves a gif! who wouldn't wish for him? as always, his perfection renders me speechless so i'm not going to say anything more.

6) Good Health

having good health is really important, especially after i've been falling sick over and over again recently. also, good health for everybody i care about and for the world population is also good! it's scary to see a family member fall ill and you've to be so helpless cause there's nothing much that can be done unless you're a doctor or a healer or something.

7) Clean. Green World

Humans have ruined the environment. WE NEED A CLEAN AND GREEN EARTH! need i say more?

8) World Peace

it's so important for the world to coexist at one! if everybody would JUST.STOP.FIGHTING. maybe issues like world hunger, or overpopulation etc etc would be able to be solved? yes arguments would definitely occur but why must people go to war?! imo it's completely and utterly unnecessary. like my usage of 'utterly' in that sentence. geddit?

9) Superpowers

i've always secretly wished that i'd have some kind of cool super power that i can use to save the world or fight assholes and generally just be awesome! hahahahahahaha i still do actually. *shifty eyes*

10) No more cruelty!

this is the only photo i found that i can bear to post up. i hate animal cruelty or any forms of cruelty. hate the situations in which animals aren't able to defend themselves against whatever's threatening them. i really really really really really get too angry for words when i see such cases. and i really wish that i could do something about it? i guess i could, in little ways but then again this will link to one of my previous 'i might wish for's, which is to have super powers so i can kick the asses of the cruel people!

11) Happiness

Possibly the most important 'i might wish for's of all. Happiness!! you could have everything in the world, and still feel unhappy. or you could have nothing at all, but feel unhappy. so, happiness is really really important.

so, these are the 11 things i would wish for in a blogpost dated  11/11/11! also, i would like to announce that i managed to catch 11:11:11 AM/ 11/11/11!!!!!

my colleagues actually was like 'wahlao' but yeah. i don't care! i wished on something that won't happen for another 1000 thousand years or so. blablabla.

okay, got to go back to working. annoying fuckers getting on my nerves. hate people who always expect things to be done for them and are extremely unappreciative. i don't have to prepare shit for you. that's not within my job scope!

okay abrupt end of rant. bye!

xx

Hair!

haven't blogged lately. been meaning to, but as usual the procrastination king and 'i'm-too-lazy' queen reigned..... so yeah.

what's been up lately? nothing much actually. been thinking of more money making schemes and fretting about random stuff but other than that life has been pretty normal as normal can be.

am blogging from work, juggling looking like i'm doing something important and trying to look awake. sucks. if only i can just get the 'Sentosa Cove' for my 3-4 pieces of 'Marina Bay'..... heard from my cousin that she over heard someone in her school canteen shrieking that they got Sentosa Cove. wonder how it will feel like clutching a little ticket that could and probably would change your entire life?

anyway, mid-shoulder hair length has been calling out to me for quite some time now, but i haven't had the guts to do so. it took me at least 2 years for my hair to get to the length it is at right now. endured many comments about my slow hair growth till it finally did get longer.

been seeing loads of really pretty girls with beautiful hair around, especially on tumblr. most of them have super long and thick hair.. looking at the photos on the screen and then at my own limp, thin and dry, tangled hair.. really makes me feel a little depressed and reluctant to chop off my hair cause i believe that there are always products that can improve hair + scalp conditions.

i am rather particular to long styles with either bangs or long fringes and especially in shades of red. really, really feel like dying my hair red right now, but i don't think my work place would allow such a color? also, frequent dying will continue to fry my hair..

conclusion: i lack the balls to do anything drastic to my hair.

next blog post: review on hair care products!


xx