color blind at a rainbows crossing

"you'll harden your heart like never before."

currently am at plaza, typing with a faulty keyboard while the rest play dota.

again.

oh welllll.

oh yeah and i'm kind of in a comtemplative(sp?) kind of mood now, but it's kind of ruined cause of a very irritated feeling i'm having against my falsies. like what the fuck can't they stick on properly once and for all without threatening to drop off and can my eyes STOP tearing? -..-

GOD.

anyway, i think humans are all weird and selfish creatures. you cling on to someone, firmly declaring your love and never ending whatevers, till you get your fill of the chemicals that make up "love" and then you leave.

and sometimes you don't have a better reason for leaving, and so you hide and declare, never pausing to care how it might affect the other person in the relationship, that that's the end.

but is the stand you originally have, good enough to take the fall in place of her heart? it's true that it doesn't really matter what you say, simply because you're not the one left to pick up the pieces, like always and forever.

sometimes life is fair, and it gives retribution to those who deserve it. but what of those who don't deserve it? to have tears in their eyes, perhaps asking,why them, why him, and why her.

but all they have to fall back on are reasons that further pull holes into the thin fabric of something resembling a bullet ridden cloth. if saying, "cause i was weak," or "cause i found out differently," or something else could further cover the hurt that would fall, then perhaps it should be said. but honestly it really shows the fact that you could have done better/tried harder/gone further. it never should end this way.

and now it makes me scared. as nelly furtado goes, "why do all good things come to an end?" and do they?

i mean. once certain things are said, or done, it's hard to do things like that. perhaps if what your vision of a perfect relationship was wearing you out, then shouldn't you change it instead of heading the easy way out?

OH PIKACHU'S BACK. -..- from hongkong. welcome (::::: he said he got me something that will make me more feminine. LIKE HELLLO?! I AM ALREADY SUPER FEMININE CAN!?. anyway he walked into plaza so ya.

anyway, i lost my train of thought. thanks.-..- HAHA.

soiguess i'll continue some other time.

classchalet tomorrow, and i hope everything will go smoothly and well. (:

off. ta fuckers (:



xoxo
but you'll never see her cry

ps: what ever may be, i'll stand by you. like always, and like forever.