eggs are mean.

Bec's over at the moment!

the parents are out for five days and i've got to be on my bestest behaviour! that explains why i'm not out right now.

we did the typical girly stuff you'd do on sleepovers and watched 'UP'!!!!!

like finallllly! been wanting to watch it even before it came out. but didn't manage to catch it while it was still airing in cinemas. ): yay for MIO!

thank God she's over here; else i'd be super scared! and there was a cockroach in mum's room toilet just now but Bec totally saved the day by flushing it down the sink.

i think little things like this makes life more enjoyable. friends, i mean. not the cockroach.

urg i hate insects!

okieeeeeeeee. have to go rest cause B's gonna call me later on. and i've no idea why he told me to sleep early -.- but that bugger is damn annoying. i hate it when i find out stuff that he's been doing, that i supposedly don't know about. but aiya i just chance upon such stuff.

though really, i'm supposed to be secure and all that, plus it doesn't really matter, but i still don't like it. *gives annoyed huff*

stuff to do tomorrow, so i need to sleeeeeeeeep.

byebye!

xoxo

edited:

read some blogs. and i feel damn afraid of the end of this relationship.

this fear makes me almost wanna give everything up now. every single thing.the texts, phone calls, concern, jealousy, hugs, kisses, the i love yous and the blissful kinda feeling when it's like all's right with the world as long as we're together; every single piece of what constitutes our relationship.

cause we're still so young. heartbreak is inevitable, and when it happens..... i don't wanna pick up the pieces again. that nightmare's in the past, but it lingers on like a crazy song you can't get out of your head.

i'm afraid. i really am. though i say i'll be different if/when it happens, i know it'll hurt the same way all over again. though i'll know how to handle it, doesn't mean it'll get any easier.

the thing about A and i is that we don't do the whole 'forever and ever' thing. for me, it's too much to hope for, and too illogical. it's just taking it a step at a time, and getting through whatever crap comes up.

i'd like to believe that i'm special to him, like how he is to me. but then again, that's also too much to hope for. after all i'm just another person, nothing much.

and we have so many issues..... the recent one being of importance and me going to club. so so many things to get through. i'm not hoping for much, but i do hope that there won't be any heartbreak any more.

i really hate seeing couples break up. it makes me wonder when our expiry date is. he's like home to me now, and it scares me more than anything cause i realize i'm even more vulnerable now than i am then, in a way.

don't feel like blogging any more. goodnight.

mood: sombre.