it's 4.59 in the morning, and i'm unable to ease myself back into sleep. it's so much better there, without the problems and worries of everyday life.
it always takes two hands to clap. i can't solve anything if the other party is unwilling to, but when faced with a big one such as this, how am i supposed to do anything to even get close to settling it? it has already become bigger than the both of us, this.
and it's fucking ironic how _ can keep sitting on his high horse, preaching about lessons _ doesn't follow. i may not know much about r/s anymore, but what i do know is that it doesn't take much to avoid a problem, only immaturity and cowardice.
it's hard to keep on loving without feeling like i'm letting myself get treated like crap. it shouldn't be this way at all!
i'm gonna write everything down into a fucking long letter. explain myself there and just give it. if there're no actions made then i'm gonna have to do what's best for me. and not him. not anymore.
should i give up, or should i just keep chasing pavements, even if it leads nowhere?
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