20/11

"full circle, and then some."

i know i'm a few hours late, but still, better late than never right?

anyway, i know i said a few photos, but i honestly can't quite be bothered to dig them up.

okay okay this is spoiling the mood.

anyway, it was our eleventh three hours before, and there were constant reminders about how hard it was for us to get back together.

both of us made a lot of mistakes, and we both learned a lot about each other, and what it takes to save a relationship, or what to do to break one.

there was a point in time where i'd honestly, put you down and start to move on with my life, but somehow our paths brought us back, full circle. at first i was really hesitant of even walking down this again, of getting myself entangled in something that spells disaster all over.

but i guess you've proved to me that some things do change, and i've proved that some things never do.

i'm not gonna say things about how perfect we are for each other, cause we're not. we irk each other to no end, and we've been having the stupidest quarrels these few days, which only end when we can't quite keep up being angry at each other.

somehow at the end of the day, you make me forget why i even got mad in the first place, no matter how pissed off i was.

however, all in all. i do think that we are worth another shot, that's why i took that step. it's not going to be easy at all, we've a lot of issues left to work out and work through, but i guess that's part and parcel of every relationship?

we're very different people, and we're always disagreeing, but somehow we manage to get along, manage to talk about stuff, manage to be better than ever. and i guess it counts for something right?

i do hope you'll never stop being good to me, no matter how much i piss you off, or no matter how many times i do things that make you angry. and i hope that you know that i always say and do things on impulse, cause that's the way i am. but i'll try to rein that in, and stop flaring up at you when i get irritated.

we aren't perfect, and we're both stubborn as hell. i really wonder how long we're going to last before we try to kill each other, but even if i do kill you, i want you to know that i love you. <3

and i want to thank you for doing stuff for me, for meeting my friends though you'd rather not in the beginning, for wanting to please my parents (even though you blamed me when you explained to my mum about our quarrel), for attempting to be thoughtful and succeeding many times, and many many more.

okay, enough of the sappy stuff. you better treat me good okay, and remember everything we agreed upon. i love how you've taught me so much about myself, and how you've changed so so much.

i love you A. happy 11th.


xoxo
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ps: see you tomorrow!

pps: credits to K for the then/than spellings.