Saturday night

the girls are at butter partying and i'm at home on a rainy saturday night with nothing much to do. it feels nice and weird actually, like i really really wanted to go but i chose not to. totally need the 'loud music and flashing lights' (hahahahaha) to drown out how wretched i'm feeling right now. yes, wretched. tho the optimist in me has already got me feeling much better than before.but well.....

shrugs*

anyway, was on the way home on yk's car with cyn and joey + yk when cyn and i started talking about.....

yes. at probably 6 in the morning after a night of revelry, not to mention a stomachful of a variety of delicious dimsum and porridge.

the chart is quite self-explainatory, and according to the theory, you have to fulfill the lower levels before you can start climbing up to the top level. (self-actualization) 

like you have to fulfill your basic physiological needs before you can proceed on to the next need (safety), and so on and so forth. and it's really hard to gain self-actualization btw, not as easy as one would think.

asked cyn 'so what levels do you think you've achieved?' and she said that sometimes she feels like she does hit all 5 levels, but it's only occasionally and it slips back down most of the time to a 4.

for me it's more of a 3-4? it's not that i don't have the respect of others or that people don't give me proper treatment etc, it's that i have horrible self-esteem issues. i know it sounds really bogus coming from me, especially since i have my face plastered on my blog header plus i kinda like camwhoring, but still. i used to have bad days everyday, but now i'm starting to accept myself a little more, fat thighs and all. ahahaha so it's starting to become half of  a 4?

Cyn and i then agreed that to hit 5 would mean that the person has to be really content with who he/she is and satisfied with what they are (refer to previous need), or else they'd never have hit their personal potential and capabilities (in their own mind, cause they'd never be satisfied and thus the meter would always go upwards). though there are other characteristics of self-actualization here http://psychology.about.com/od/theoriesofpersonality/tp/self-actualized-characteristic.htm

okay keep in mind that this is just my own opinion of what achieving self-actualization MIGHT be about. hahahaha

woah long post much.

okay anyway to conclude, when i read through the characteristics, i realize that i do fit into some categories sometimes, so that leads me to wonder: is it possible to achieve self-actualization and not have achieved the lower level needs?  


xoxo
ps: give yourself a clap on the back if you've read throughout! <:  
pps: i really should have paid more attention in class/attended class more.