it seems like a lot has been happening recently, these few days especially. have no idea what i'm doing sometimes, but i know it's not enough to just blame it on external factors.

going with the flow seems like a good idea, but sometimes it just gets too damn overwhelming, till it feels like there's a current trying it's hardest to drag you under. and yet it's hard to resist, cause it's the first thing that makes you feel even slightly better.

okay enough with the ~

first time in a thai disco with Cyn, Ruixiang, Zhixiang, Peter and Jackie (Jacky)? quite not bad, cause there were pretty girls everywhere! super hot, i swear. went off around three plus to another one, and it's damn annoying cause of the whole underage thing.. it was kind of a different environment, and i think i like to people-watch a lot.

the whole saggitarian thing about emotional detachment is quite true. didn't use to think so but after all this.....

it's just weird.

okay i've no idea what i'm thinking about everything's a blur -.- can't seem to concentrate. shall go chat and stuff. kbye


xoxo
i'll pretend. pretend.

"hey stranger,"

seems like damn long since i've touched a computer, but i think it's only been two nights?

Cyn and i went for mahjong at Zhixiang's place with his brother. blablablablabla. had fun i guess?

i think it's a little creepy the way i said, "you remember that mv we saw at my place about the guy in the club and he didn't know which girl to go up to? it's all about decisions lor. imagine if we went to club just now instead of coming here"blablablablabla.

haha okay that is usually quite significant somehow. :D

i guess we also found out quite a lot of stuff i guess? and it's very weird in a way. very.

okay i think i'm blabbering. can't blog properly irritating.

oh ya school start already. knn!!!!! but okay better than wasting time around. BUT I STILL HAVE ACTIVITIES LEH DON'T LIKE THAT LEH. tmd.

choose choose.....~


xoxo
next to your heart

ps:it sucks mother fucking balls i swear!!!!! fuck this man. FML.


edited:

heading out w the same people +1. i wanna have fun fun fun fun fun. but i'm falling asleep waiting for them to come pick me up. i hope i see pretty girls later on too!

utterly bored. wanna mahjong siaaaaaaa.

wanna clean up my room too, but haven't gotten around to hanging up all my clothes. say yay for new hangers! black ones -.-

maybe clubbing later. hopefully so, cause i'm itching to go. (eh rhymes!) sigh booooorrrrrrrrreeeeee-innnnnnnngggggggggg.

head hurts somewhat which is weird cause i just woke up from weird sleep, and i feel damn fat now ): plus some tummy cramps. oh my weird! okay bye bye.


xoxo
won't be soon before long

edited:

Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing. It still doesn’t mean anything. It’s what you do to the people you say you love, that’s what matters. It’s the only thing that counts.

I finally found it in me to forgive you for what you’ve done. No, see, I know you don’t think you did anything wrong, and that made it so much harder to forgive you. But you did, you walked away when I needed you most. I forgive you, but I’ll never forget the way you made me feel when you walked away.

so, so true.

(both via eletheowl)

"be careful, it's delicate/ it could crumble apart"

i luv Kinna grannis. she's absolutely amazing and talented. check her out on youtube! i luv every one of her covers and songs. talented, i swear.

have so many things i wanna buy, and so many things i have to do. sick.

went back to my insane_cupid_love acc, and i realize that there are so many people in there that i've forgotten. and i'm going around asking 'hi! who are you?' -.- satisfying my curiosity.

LOL and i'm irritating people with questions like 'so how've you been since the last time we chatted?' i tell you they confirm think i weird and wanna act friendly. but i'm really bored. so.....

aiya i don't know which photos to post up so my blog will remain boring and photo-less. ~~~~~

okay shall go attempt to clean up my room and make a checklist of what i wanna buy blablablablabla.

-.- i wish my house had a sofa in the living room. seriously! it'll be so much easier if i wanna have friends over and they'd have a place to sit. -.-

okay byebye maybe i'll come back to share my thoughts or whatever.


xoxo
lips like sugar

weary, wary.

it's been less then/than 24 hours since i reached home, and i feel way too bored.

too many thoughts going on in my head as usual. wish i had the power to do everything right from the start. to choose differently. strangely enough, i'm not even talking about matters of the heart.

it's not fair sometimes. but then again, nothing really is.

self exile, till saturday. these days are dragging on..... and on.

i hate picking up the pieces. hate having to keep plodding on when all i wanna do is stop and rest. but then/than again, i'd hate to be stuck with all these thoughts like how i am right now.

i wanna eat chocolates now. bye


xoxo
love game

ps: i'd never thought i'd understand, never thought i'd feel sickened by it all. cause it was just a game, just a game. nothing should ever be taken at face value anymore. and i'm afraid the rest will be just like you, just like you. hearts should come with safety equipment and a metal cord wrapped tight so we'll never or lose it.

fucking tired i swear. exhausted and yet i've to work cause i told Junkai i will, although my whole body is screaming for me not to.

i'm aching all over, kinks in my shoulders, throbbing headache, arms hurt; even my ass is aching.

Cyn's sleeping peacefully in my bed but poor her has to wake up in approximately 35 minutes.

supposedly it was just mahjong today (at freaking 10 am) with John, Junkai, Jonathan and Cyn. then after that was their friend's birthday party (HAPPY BIRTHDAY BY THE WAY!).

he was damn sporting. one of the most sporting people i've ever met, in fact. then went with them to play pool. i've to improve lah!!!!! damn annoying.

i think i like to analyze people way too much. cause i notice even the smallest details, blabla. and it affects my impression of that person.

K session at Bugis after. and here i am at home. what the fuck......... tired.

saw the weirdest looking cockroach today. like seriously. stared at it and .....

okay goodnight.


xoxo
taste of you.

am currently at K's now, while she's bathing, BUT SHE DOESN'T WANNA BATHE (smelly).

we went for badminton, or at least attempted to play for fifteen minutes then it was "rest time"..... and she's so hyper over .....

HAHA. Just Kidding. jkjkjkjkjk.

went out with Cyn yesterday and we watched 'Surrogate'..... nua-ed around blabla, and miraculously made plans at the spur of the moment, and ended up playing pool at Plaza with some friends.

she spent the night at my place and helped me make up my mind over some stuff. thankkkkk you darling. :D

then it was dinner with Cyn and Bec at C.point. been some time since we've spent time together, the three of us. they headed off to Yishun while i went off to meet K.

super tired! zzzzzzzzz.

okay shall stop blogging and entertain K. (:


byebye


xoxo
no it's not .