the wrong kind of notion

"today won't mean a thing"

ohhhhh, HAPPY CNY FUCKERS! -..-

not much of a happy one recently, but oh well, at least its a nice festival where the moolahs will keep on running in.

we're back together, again. emphasis on the again. lol.

for now i guess i'm just living it day by day, seeing how it goes. i guess somehow i'm detaching myself from this relationship till i can be more sure of 'us'.

(the tvee is counting down. and apparently it's really the "chinese new year" some kid is shouting excitedly. wish i had that enthusiasm.)

but yeah, i guess everything should be okay? i'll learn how not to think so much, and i hope he'll learn how to reign in his temper, and be more sweet to me.

HAHA. oh well.

we had a good talk yesterday, and it's obvious that there are still quite some issues between us that aren't quite solved. but yeah, i'm going to try the best i can for this r/s, without putting too much of myself in it. LOL contradicting yeah? but yeah i don't know, perhaps it's the best way for the both of us. till i can see the effort the other party is putting in i guess. i know i've got to change too(:

gggrrrrrrrr. i hope he will really be coming overrrrrrrr.


anyway, my back is hurting like a sweet motherfucker and i've got to go get some r&r in time for tomorrow, where there will be that need to smile smile smile smile smile and look your best when you might not feel your best.

oh well.

'ta

xoxo
your words, do.

ps: holding back on us was never the wisest choice, but what am i to do if you are?