loving you a little less than before

i thank God for my friends, for my parents, for the people who really do care, no matter how much shit i do.

for weewee, who has been there for me, though i was a very fucked up friend. who scolds me and acts like my jimney cricket, and still being there, even after all this time.

for karen, who cares still, even after i've acted like a jerk, when i've always disappointed her, for the meals we had in silence and getting irritated like hell by each other. HAHA you know what i mean right?

for boo, who doesn't blame me when we've not contacted for a long time, for being understanding when i wasn't there for her. like how we can not contact for months, and still be as good.

for huibing, who stood up for me, even when a lot of people were talking behind my back. for saying that my friendship with her will never be affected when shit happened and she got very hurt partly thanks to me.

for cynthia, who still misses me, my partner-in-crime! who listens to me whine and offer me advice, and getting really angry for me when i tell her stuffs, and giving me new perspective.

for bec, who was always so responsible, looking after me in ways, being there, my four blocks away! bringing me around with her when i didn't want to stay home, when i wanted to talk, and oriental, i'll never forget.

for shiqi, whom i haven't met for the longest time, neither did we contact, save for birthdays and stuff like that. i was really damn touched when you got super worried for me and all, and how you remember what i told you and stuff like that.

for mabel, who was there whenever i needed someone to cry to, the person who calmed me down and talked to me. i've never ever thought we would get close again, and thank you dear for always thinking of me when you go out and all, for listening to all my troubles and tell me what to do and all.

for binghui, who always tries to listen to me, asking me if i'm okay, when he has shitloads of work to do, putting aside those mountains of work to talk to me. the one who got really upset when he 'can't do anything to help me' dear, being there for me is more then enough!

for sebas, who really is like the brother i've never had. who spent nearly a hundred bucks just to get me to a doctor last night. who bails me out when i'm in a jam, who listens to me whine endlessly, who's really there no matter what, at anytime. he's one of the people who really treat me the nicest! and i'm so glad that weiliang clicked us into that convo that one fine day on msn, back when i was secondary one.

for darren, who was there for me when i felt very shitty, who says i'm his best friend and all. though we've not been talking properly for quite sometime already, i do know that he'll always be there? and likewise, no matter what.

for my cousins, the two eves and one lois, for everything, everything.

forrrrrrr, all the people who said 'i'll be there for you, no matter what', and really did it. for all those who said '24/7!' who said 'i miss you! lets meet up!'

the ones who said 'no matter what i'll support you' and really meant it. not a 'for-the-moment' kind of thing. the ones who really want to see me, and who thinks that i'm worth something.

i love each and everyone of you. and don't forget that, ever.

throughout the whole issue with ______, i really felt loved, by you guys, and i won't give anyone of you up. not ever.

millions of hugs and all, swear! and if i forgot anyone, i didn't mean to, i think it's just that fever that's still running it's course. ):

xoxo
counting my blessings

ps:i really don't want to appear needy, but i guess that's all i've been portraying myself to be. but, i think i do deserve explanations. i do, i do.