Dreamer

cynthia; says (4:34 AM):
*hes not thinking abt you
Johanna says (4:34 AM):
*yeah i know.
cynthia; says (4:34 AM):
*why are you worrying for him?
*i mean its okay to la but its been w=quite long
*and
*Dont look him up if you really wanna get over him
Johanna says (4:34 AM):
*yknow, i never wanted to.
cynthia; says (4:35 AM):
*i know but its not you only
Johanna says (4:35 AM):
*i know.
cynthia; says (4:35 AM):
*looking at the situation now really dont look him up
Johanna says (4:35 AM):
*he wants me to too.
cynthia; says (4:35 AM):
*i know you miss him
*urghh
*LOL
Johanna says (4:35 AM):
*lol continue (:
cynthia; says (4:36 AM):
*just dont look him up la ...
*think about how every1 will look at you
*do you really wanna let pppl think of you as a super clingy desperate cant get over keep on looking august up
Johanna says (4:37 AM):
*sucks to be me but if that's what it takes then yes
*but i know that chances are it wont
cynthia; says (4:37 AM):
*he obviously moved on already
*it will be all these
*and no results dear
Johanna says (4:37 AM):
*i mean it wont work
*yeah
cynthia; says (4:37 AM):
*worth it?
*yea so dont look him up
*you can miss him think abt him
*but dont look him up
cynthia; says (4:38 AM):
*it'll only tempt you to wanna try to get back
*when he doesnt care
cynthia; says (4:39 AM):
*but one day you'll wake up and you finally feel like you can move on to another person


i need the harshest words, to just break that will, to stop it whole.
heart, why'd you got to be so persistent? why'd you insist on loving someone who obviously doesn't appreciate it.

truthfully i even envy couples who can quarrel, cause it means that at least they still have something. and i feel so fucked up.

tell me, who else can appreciate you like i do? take every single bit of you and just accept you for you, shit and all.

but it's been so long, too long. i need someone who can appreciate me the way i did to you. the one who would accept me without me having to change the slightest bit. the one who would mean it when they say they trust me cause they love me and not just give me words.

fuck why am i still harping on this?! b.o.r.i.n.g.

what i meant to say was: fuck this, fuck everything. i'm never gonna fall in love again. especially with you. _l_

oh yeah, and 'love is like a string and a kite. the kite will always tug a bit further on the string, wanting to fly a little higher, annoyed at how the string seems to be always pulling it down and restricting it to the ground. however, what it doesn't know is that the string is the only thing keeping it from facing the full force of the wind, and keeping it from spiraling out of control and crashing face first into the ground.'

from someone's blog i saw just now, consider it reblogged.



bbye.