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I’ve been through so much with you, more than any other guy, and I still want you as much as I did the first time I laid eyes on you. Every time I see you, it’s like meeting you for the first time all over again. It’s the butterflies in the stomach, the not knowing what to say, but out of all the things you’ve taught me, there’s still one thing I don’t know. I don’t know how to fall out of love with you. I don’t know how to let go and as I stand here looking at you, I wonder if there will ever be a day when I will get over your smile, when I will let go of the hugs you gave me that I continue to feel. A day when I forget the words you said to me, forget what you meant to me or forget how much I love you. But, no matter what you did to me or whatever happens to us, I know I could never get over, let go, or forget you. When you care about someone as much as I do you, being apart is the hardest thing to get used to. I thought I’d handle it just fine and that I’d be happy just to keep you on my mind. But it isn’t always that easy. Sometimes the one thing that would please me the most is simply seeing you. I knew that I’d miss you, I just didn’t know I’d miss you as much as I do. I want to share my tears with you. I want to share my love with you. I want to share my happiness with you. I want to share my strength with you, my smiles, my frowns, my joy, my loss, my good days, my bad days, the rain, the sunshine, hot cocoa, and the snowflakes. I want to share my life with you. People can just be best friends, but at one point or another, one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe, just maybe, forever.

— (via eletheowl)

everybody goes through this at a point of time; i just have to adjust to life without him right? i'd like to think i can do this on my own, but whenever someone tells me something that reminds me of him, another wave hits and i somehow realize; i can't get through this at all.

and it makes me wanna break down and cry, and makes me wanna run back to his side, but that isn't an option anymore. the only thing i can do is carry on and hope that one day i'll wake up and find that i don't love him anymore.


xoxo

ps: i can read your mind.