you don't make sense.

"well you know what they say about men."

am fucking tired at 8.09 pm, in fact i'm lying on the bed about to fall asleep. determined to blog however, i've no idea why -..-

mahjong at John's with Johnathan and Junkai > Meetup with K, Whb and Boo > Home to rest > and later it's Pasir Ris for drinking session with John, Jonathan and his friends.

i'm fucking fucking tired hope i can wake up! only have about an hour to rest. was supposed to meet _____ for dinner but decided against it. weird? hahahahaha.

lost about $30 + in mahjong today, and it's been awhile since i lost this kind of amount. normally i'm pretty lucky, but urggh, maybe it's self fulfilling prophecy huh, since i felt like i was going to lose today. -..-

okayyyyy back to the issue of C and D. urgh, i feel so disgusted even linking their names together. supposedly he's denying every single thing? like what the fuck even going so far as to act all self righteous and all, how do you sleep at night man?

and i've heard of other people who get victimized by such rumors too, when it didn't even happen. like what the fuck? you people enjoy saying stuff that aren't true huh? i feel so fucking disgusted, like seriously. i don't understand why people like you have to spread things like this, and even worse deny it afterward. like what C wrote on her blog, you dare, you tag on her blog and say that you didn't do anything, didn't say anything. i despise you, low life creeps who give decent guys out there a bad name.

and the worse thing is that those guys aren't even hot. oh so maybe that's why they all feel the need to say such stuff? fucking disgusting! and guess what, you can't even have the guts to own up to it and be like a 'man' or something and apologize. why deny it when everybody knows the truth? every message of you saying that, it's proof kay.

coward. i despise you. in fact, i think most of the girls despise guys like you.


hahahahahahahaha. acting like that, what are you trying to prove?


okay anyway, off to snooze for awhile. i missed my girls, and it felt nice for the four of us to be together again even if it was just for awhile. luvssssz.


night, photos up soon!


xoxo
heartache

ps: it's still the same, only perhaps that the ache grew deeper, and my heart feels like it's hollow. i don't know how to carry on.. but carrying on is just a step to move on.