'Say a little prayer for you

Bandeau Tie-Back Grecian Maxi Dress

nope! not selling it! i made it. (: an almost exact replica of this dress. almost exactly cause there are slight differences of course! like the material (i've no idea what this dress is made of though mine is made out of stretchy and slightly heavy fabric) and it's certainly not as well made (there are weird sticking out parts and uneven hemming but not noticeable unless you keep staring at it. overall, it's wearable and i'm damn fucking proud to say that i made this.

though to people with experience it'll certainly be a piece of cake to them. it was surprisingly easy! took around 1-2 hours. will post photos of it up if i'm not that lazy! and i wanna receive praise so badly that i have half a mind to wake my mum up.

am wondering if i should wear this to Granny's birthday celebration later, but i don't think it's such a good idea right? all black? ><

anyway, school was postponed due to the class having too little people. was quite pissed off, but ah what to do? looking for jobs now, people help me keep a look out! (:

had a tiff with the boyfriend again, and i'm not really very happy about matters but i really can't be bothered to quarrel with him about it though i think he's really being a jerk and being over-sensitive about matters.

and i found out that my mood really goes down super low when i don't have enough sleep. which i should be doing right now, instead of blogging to hao lian. HAHA

i wonder what it'll be like if things were different. and i wonder why is it that you really can make me smile so easily even when my mood sucks. but there's no point thinking about things. i'm here now. i'm here. and i'm supposed to be happy. i am, aren't i?

ha. second guessing ain't a good sign.

oh well mad ramblings, and my tummy is calling for food! mac's breakfast in particular, a certain 'sausage egg mcmuffin meal'! with upsized milo and hashbrown to go please. ah damn it i hate it when i've not enough cash and even mac seems expensive. ):

i need to shop and get my arse out soon. on the other hand i feel so lazy and sleepy all the time it can't be too good for my health. right?


oh well off to bed or macs or something. gotta make up my mind cause i've got to be up in time to go to A's to collect my itouch.

goodnight/good morning people! <3


xoxo
what if? 

'No control

can't sleep @ 6:28 am and i've got school later on. anxieties creeping up on me, one's that shouldn't bother me now. i'm a worrywart at heart, when it comes to things i've no control over.

oh my God school. i've always had first day jitters. h8 it.

need baby now. 

'Smiles

i don't normally do the whole 'rating-my-day' thing, nor do i have many 'fuck my life' moments, simply cause firstly, i don't think days should be compared like that cause we should be happy to be alive as it is and secondly, cause i think life doesn't deserved to be complained about nor fucked simply cause of bad moments.

however, today was a great day. though there were minor moments in which i got annoyed and pissy, it was great. Baby brought me to eat tao huay, and after that it was chocolate milk ice shavings + calamarie rings. headed to the arcade and i watched him play drums and we completed the bishy-bashy game (sp), well at least he did. it wasn't anything special, but it felt nice to spend time together, just the two of us.

after that, i headed home and my parents surprised (not really) me with something i've wanted for quite a long time. am really touched cause i know i don't deserve it at all. it's sad that my parents probably don't know how much i love them, cause i really don't do family affection very well.

F.A.M.I.L.Y! (gratz to those who get it.)

honestly, today was one of the best days in a long long while, though my days have all been quite good. perhaps people might wonder why i'm so happy at just spending time with my boyfriend, when it's quite a normal thing for others. see, we have loads of problems, and half the time we're fighting or being angry at each other. it's hard for the both of us to spend time together like this. so i'm happy. (:

there're so many other reasons besides myself as to why i've got to work hard and buck up.

don't feel like blogging any further. have a good night, whoever's reading! (:


xoxo
counting your blessings

'Fences

it's a saturday night, and i'm sitting in front of my computer wondering where to go. ph? ktv? it's already nearing 11 pm, and i'm not even ready.

having no money sucks. and i'd hate to have to lie to my boy in order to have some fun. what we need is balance. balance.

'Hot mess

sometimes i'd find myself wanting to get out of this whole mess, cause that's what we are. a mess, most of the time. but then i'll stop, always. it's only been four days but i find myself missing you already.

why does my boyfriend seem to be a confinement-magnet?

on a side note, i want to go shopping and re-dye my hair before school starts. yes, school.





xoxo
baby,i'm waiting for your call. 

'Mundane

it seems to be ages since i last updated my space, tho i'd bet it's less than two weeks or so? have grown way too dependent on my computer and the internet, till the extent where i'd feel lost without it. i bet i'm not the only one.

went out to dinner with my family, and whilst waiting for the food to be served, we each sat there and fiddled with our respective gadgets, playing games/texting etc. as technology advances, the most important form of communication dwindles. the food was delicious though.

a proper post the next time. lenses has been a bitch the entire day, and my right eye is still hurting even after changing it. gratzzzzzzz.

goodnight people (:


xoxo