pay attention to my words

"no more than your heart"

just reached home and i think my mind is more tired than anything else. fuck this i tell you. fuck this.

that fucking Jackie bluff me and say that one submarine $200+ then i really went to believe him when it's only $20 plus. _l_ i sound like some suaku now.

Ruixiang says that the adult world is like that. if it really is, then i don't wanna be a part of it. a world where nothing really matters except the night and where the moments really are what they are; just moments.

when the sun rises, everything is different. save for a few. it fucking sucks.

superficiality and yet it's fun. i mean, seriously it doesn't mean that you can't just have fun right. but it's damn ironic the way you can feel super attractive one moment and fucking ugly the next. i don't think anyone gets it.

i really shouldn't do this anymore.

even looking at the people doing whatever around me..... and i wonder how real it all is, like that really can develop real relationship meh? then what's the point? sex? -.- ya maybe.

but no, not gonna be like that. cause someone told me, i'm the one who controls my own life. cliche but true. and ima make the right decisions.

cause i'm not that kinda girl. i am not. and i'm never gonna be like that. NA.

still, fun though.

maybe partying this friday. and plans during the weekend. have to fucking go down to boat quay mac to settle stuff. fucked up. just give me a broom and dustpan i help you clear your shit. HAHA. but okay i'm not gonna complain further since the person in question is nice.

fuck blabbering. school tomorrow. i like school. (:

kay byebye earthlingggggggs! or whoever's reading.


xoxo
once bitten twice shy

ps: i'm not a girl who thinks a guy is the answer; i'm just tired of being alone.


edited:

OH YA I REDYED MY HAIR WITH CYN TODAY! AND FUCK IT ALL NO DIFFERENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >=[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[ actually have but still quite dark. it's supposed to be 'intense light ash blonde' or something like that. so hopefully it'll lighten with every wash since it's supposed to be ash. knn!